Category : Posts

07 Dec, 16

2016 at a glance


Nothing will ever prepare you for the day that your entire world comes crashing down. For me, and for a lot of other people, this is the day that you are diagnosed with cancer. This is how I started 2016, and spent the majority of the year. It’s like something out of a movie, where you don’t think that it could ever happen to you. Until it does. It was the most difficult, terrifying, mentally and physically exhausting year of...

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20 Oct, 16

The journey continues during Remission


Remission. Everyone thinks it’s over, but it’s never really over. We all try to be strong, but we also all have our off days. Our cancer centers become our security blankets. We become attached to our doctors. We become attached to our nurses. We become attached to those in pathology that draw our blood during labs. It’s all a sense of security, and once you’re in remission, your security blanket is completely gone. That’s why they say that the first...

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02 Oct, 16

“Life after cancer”


They say that remission is hard. It’s sometimes more hard than the actual treatment itself. I remember on my last day of chemo, one of my friends who is an NP at my cancer center told me this, and it stuck with me. I’ve been in remission for two months, and while I thank god every night for giving me a second chance, it’s not as easy as it sounds. It’s hard. Really hard. You’re still tired, your body is...

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07 Sep, 16

What cancer has taught me


In the last seven months, I’ve learned more about myself and life, than I’ve learned in the last twenty nine years. Cancer has been the biggest fight of my life, the biggest wake up call of my life, and the biggest teacher of my life. Here are a few things that cancer has taught me.. Miracles happen every day. Every freaking day. I’m a living example that miracles happen. In January, I had cancer in almost every organ in my...

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04 Sep, 16

What remission is really like


Just like how no one really tells you what to expect during chemotherapy, no one really tells you what to expect during remission. Your friends and family think that being in remission means that cancer is now something of the past. Unfortunately once you are diagnosed with cancer, it’s never something of the past. Ever. In my opinion, remission has been at times, more difficult than the actual chemo itself, and cancer in general is just a complete mind f*ck....

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08 Aug, 16

You have to keep going


Around 6 months ago, I was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lymphoma. It was the most traumatic time of my entire life. I wasn’t in any support groups, I had no idea what to expect, and my cancer center didn’t give much advice. I had no idea about all of the crazy things that were happening to my mind and body. I spent almost 3 weeks in the hospital because my disease was so intense, and that’s where I began chemo....

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03 Aug, 16

What 6 months of cancer is like


To talk about things lightly, 6 months ago, I entered Sylvester Comprehensive Cancer Center as a materialistic, superficial brat. I thought I was the queen of the world. Living in Miami, the city ended up consuming me, and I thought that owning expensive watches and designer bags was what defined me. I thought that what I looked like on the outside truly defined me. I thought which VIP list I would be on that night, or who’s yacht I was...

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01 Aug, 16

Keep busy during chemo & neutropenia!


I become Neutropenic after every single chemo, so house arrest is way too much of a friend (or foe!) to me. The last two weeks, I’ve never been so bored in my entire life. So here’s a list of things that I did while on house arrest. Seriously, you have to keep yourself entertained. Scrap booking! I’ve been working on a scrap book of my entire cancer journey and it’s so awesome! I got a bunch of material from Michael’s...

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22 Jul, 16

What it’s like to have cancer


Cancer is a very touchy subject. Unfortunately, you will never truly understand it, until it happens to you. This is why as a non-cancer patient, you have to tread lightly and be very careful about how you approach the subject, how you approach giving advice, especially if you’re talking about foods and therapy, because at the end of the day, you really have no idea what it’s like to be dealt our card. I’m not the same person that I...

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19 Jul, 16

Using the law of attraction as affirmation of friendships


I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again, cancer helps you realize what’s truly important in your life. It’s sad that sometimes it takes a traumatic event in your life to help you realize things, but you realize them nonetheless. I’ve learned so many important things, and a lot of them revolve around the idea that your vibe attracts your tribe. It truly does. Before all of the cancer stuff, I was hanging out with so many of the...

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